I’m sorry too.

I didn’t say mean things about Heather Arthur’s code.

But I could have.

I didn’t see the tweets about her “replace” project that started things off. But I do share the opinion of a number of my colleagues that using a reactor-based framework in a language lacking native fibers, coroutines, continuations, or threads leads to messy code. And heaven knows I’ve done my share of whining about ugly code. Maybe if I had seen those tweets, and been in a sarcastic frame of mind, I would have joined in the bullying. I can’t rule it out.

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I’m not a better person. In fact, Steve and Corey are better people than me. Steve is the most tireless campaigner for inclusiveness I’ve ever met. He helped create a conference with a goal of being the most welcoming Ruby conference ever. And Corey is a gentle teacher with a humble, open-minded way of sharing his ideas. (Both Steve and Corey have apologized). I’m not a better person, just a person who didn’t happen to be reading at Twitter at the time.

So it could have been me making someone cry because her gift to the world wasn’t up to snuff. Or because it was a convenient illustration of my technical biases.

I’m sorry for that. I want to apologize, but I don’t know who to say it to. If I’ve been mean to you about your code,  I’m sorry.

I also feel bad because I’m writing this—and I feel like it’s something I need to say—but in the process I’m drawing attention to myself. And this is not about me. So look: if you like what I’ve said here, don’t follow me. Go follow @harthvader. Subscribe to her blog. Thank her for giving gifts to the world.